Isaiah 9:6 … and His name will be called Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace…

Jesus, I want to be more like You. Every single day.

Hunger after dreams

Service with Pst. Kong last Sat was maybe one of the best I’ve attended and it brought me back to a conscious decision, to most importantly surrender and submit myself under the will of God once again.

I was praying earlier this morning, and the Holy Spirit spoke to me, “Gerald, God wants you to know and see for yourself the dreams He has for you. He wants you to know it for yourself”

I’ve always lived under a mindset where, you know I just think well God, whatever you want it to be, it’s all up to you. I will just follow the signs and roll with the times you’ve made it to be, and I don’t have a clear vision of where I’m going. Not until today did I know in my spirit, that God wants me to take a look at what He has for me.

The bible says that blessed are those who hunger, for they shall be filled. I think it’s not enough to just ask God for a dream like this in just one conversation. It’s not like it’s, “OK since you’ve asked for it I shall let you see now *POOP*” No, I have to be hungry for it. A hungry man is a desperate man on the streets, running around begging for food.

I’m gonna start being hungry, for His dream for me! Let’s see if I’m hungry enough to get a glimpse from Him during this 1 week.

I woke up this morning with so many conflicting stuff being played in my head. It was hard-going. It was a struggle, it was painful. It’s a harsh reality, that loving God is not always easy.

I told myself that all I have to do, is to make a good decision one at a time. And I did this morning.

POPed with a bang today! And the sickening cough is still following me. dang…

Just read my last post and I… gaaarhh.

I really don’t know why. I asked myself and I couldn’t find the answer. Why do I aim so much for a gold? Why am I so hungry for it? Hopefully it’s like what Pastor Casey Treat told us today: It’s God motivating you.

I’m finally free from being a status, and my leg is miraculously healed in 2 weeks and very much alive and kicking. Hope I can make it for the gold.